Winner

It was a close call! I really enjoyed doing this comp! I will miss it but I will be judging cycle 4. My finale partner, Mojo kept me on my toes, she did a super job! I look forward to see what everyone comes up with in cycle 4, thanks Beech for having me!

Dark Shadowz finale

Human blood! So reviving! Courtney closed her eyes as she felt her body come to life, so to speak….an energy she hadn’t felt in awhile. Her eyes opened to see the dead doctor lying in a pool of blood on the floor. What had she done! No matter how good the outcome feels, the price is not worth it. There was no way of hiding what she had done. He was only trying to help her. Maybe he was right, becoming human might have been the right choice, but now it was too late….or was it? Courtney crouched over the doctor’s body and removed his name tag. It was late and the hospital was like a ghost town. Courtney found a directory and located the doctor’s office and proceeded in that direction. She had a mission. She entered the quiet and neat office of the doctor, “It has to be here somewhere”, Courtney thought. At first she started to go through the office neatly and carefully but soon frustration took over when she couldn’t find what she was looking for. She was filled with furry and then she froze, there it was or what she thought it was, what else could it be? Without giving it a second thought, Courtney took the container and drank it. At first she felt nothing and was discouraged thinking it didn’t work and that the doctor was nuts. Her head started to throb and an excruciating cramp in her stomach over took her. Something was happening and it was painful, it took all Courtney had not to scream out in pain. What was minutes seemed like an eternity to Courtney. Her body was becoming warm but something wasn’t right, she could sense it and then it stopped. She felt different, but not human, could this be right? She glanced over and saw her reflection in the doctor’s medicine cabinet and she let out a horrific scream! A knock on the doctor’s door startled Courtney! In desperation to escape she jumped out the window. How did she land on her feet when she was 7 stories up? What has she become, a monster? Courtney started to run and run, not knowing where she was going. Courtney was crossing over the Bridgeport Bridge when she stopped to catch her breath, realizing that she was actually out of breath. Then she felt something foreign to her or actually something she hasn’t felt in hundreds of years….her heartbeat. She was alive, only not human. A smile actually adorned Courtney’s distorted face. If she is alive then she could die…couldn’t she? Courtney sat on the ledge of the bridge and stared into the distance, it wouldn’t be long until sunrise she thought. And at that moment she threw herself back off the bridge into the air plunging down into the rocky waters below. “I will finally be free”, were Courtney’s last words.

Sensation issue 3

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Take a Pic, semi-finals

The word god is for me nothing more than the expression and product of human weaknesses" Einstein

Courtney saw a bit of what hell might be like when she traveled into the future. She became obsessed with prayer in hopes of gaining entrance to heaven. She had a hard time functioning in real life, focussing on whether her actions were going to condemn her.

"Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil...."

Unfortunately it was a little too late......

Dark Shadowz assignment 9-The cure

For this assigment our models had to be given the opportunity to take a cure from a little old man





A new beginning. Courtney decided to start fresh with her new ability to walk in daylight. She vowed to no longer hunt humans and look for other sources of blood. She started to make random visits to blood banks in the middle of the night. It took her awhile to get used to the stale blood. But something was still missing, she wanted more. Courtney reevaluated her life and decided that she did enough harm and wanted to make up for some of it by giving back. She decided to go back to school and become a nurse. She had a double motive; she could help others and be close to blood. Hospital blood would be a lot fresher.
Courtney went to school for a year and got her LPN. She got a job in a hospital and continued to go to school to get her RN license. She enjoyed her job and all its perks. She made some friends in convenient places in the hospital, one in the morgue and another where the blood supply was kept. Of course these “friends” were paid in several different ways. Sometimes Courtney did them favors and other times she paid in cash, money was easy to come by for Courtney.
Courtney is not quite sure when she started noticing, but there seemed to always be a strange little man lurking wherever she was, could he be following her? He seemed as though he worked there, a doctor or something, maybe it was just coincidence.
One evening, Courtney was in for a treat. A patient had passed away and she was to clean up the room where the patient was staying. It was a treat because the deceased patient was receiving blood intravenously and there was plenty left in the bag, they just throw it out anyway. Courtney was enjoying her little snack when she heard a noise behind her. She quickly turned to find the strange little man behind her. He started stuttering as he was trying to speak quickly, explaining what he was doing behind her. Courtney tries to understand his gibberish. Something about her not having to live like the creature she is………no longer feeding off blood…….hiding the truth from others……….he knew what she was……..he had a cure….to be human again……. . His heartbeat is strong and Courtney could hardly focus on his words any longer. To be human again…..was more than Courtney could handle! How could she possibly go back?! Those were the strange little man’s last words and the end of Courtney’s human free diet. Who was she kidding? The past couple of years trying to fit in and be helpful were the most boring in her over 200 year old life.

Now this is what I would call a glitch!

Now I have seen everything! Thanks to glitchy pants created by EA. Where the hell the tatto came from, I don't know.

Out of sorts

Is exactly how I am feeling lately! Just not myself! real life has been getting me lately, more down than up. There is just so much going on. This comes at a bad time, since I have never been so involved in so many sim projects, between comps, judging and being part of a magazine.
I have been back for a few weeks now from visiting my parents with one of my sisters. It was a bitter sweet visit. I was happy to see my parents and other siblings that live in NC. But was upset with seeing my sister and her "problem" up close really hurt me. She is not only my sister but my best Friend and I love her so much. She has had many misfortunes in her life and has struggled with her children and husband. She started drinking occasionally in the evenings to help her sleep.....over the years it has gotten worse. If she call after 10, I don't answer my phone, she never remembers half of our conversations anyway. While we were away, I saw how much she drank! And how it changed who she was and how she couldn't help it. I could also see in my father's eyes how much it broke his heart as well. It was so bad one evening, that the next morning she woke up and she couldn't look into our eyes as she came down the stairs because of the guilt she felt. We did not judge her but loved her instead.
My other sister who lives there also has substance abuse problems, I couldn't enjoy playing cards with my brother and his new wife because of her obnoxious outbreaks.
My older brother just got served with divorce papers and wasn't expecting it.
My younger brother confessed on facebook that he once again has been addicted to some pill (not sure which one it is this time).
And once again my mother's nodule on her lung grew back and another one came with it. She has less than 50% lung capacity and it is too risky for surgery. Last time they removed it with a cyberknife, but that combined with chemo broke her ribs. At over 70 that takes a long time to heal.
To top it off my husband lost one of his jobs. This is not so bad because he is a retired NYPD and gets a pension. But I went from having him home on just Tuesday to having him home on Tues., Wed., Thurs., and Fri. He is totally throwing me off!

I am sorry for ranting, but it is actually making me feel better!

Don't get me wrong, I am thankful for many things (maybe a new list tomorrow), just my emotions are high. If you have time, maybe you could squeeze in a prayer for my family :) . Thanks for listening.